Ugh. Writing shouldn't have to be this hard. Really.

I love writing. It's what i want to do with my life. But somewhere along the line of writing for pure enjoyment and really taking it seriously, i never realised how much hard work you put into it. 

I am so much more aware of plot holes, plot development, character development and world building. I am continuously re-reading everything and re-writing bits and pieces that i have to wonder if my writing is any good. It could be a good sign that i am pouring my blood, sweat and tears into this thing, but does it actually mean its a good piece of fiction?

I don't write as fast as i used to, which is a bit aggravating, nor do i like how i write anymore. Perhaps a little of my low self-confidence in real life creeping in there. 

Either way, i might have to post part of it onto a writing community and see what other people think from an entirely different point of view. 

::Headdesk::